New year, new chapter. Hello 2015

The last 4 months of 2014 were difficult for me, I seemed to have faced some challenging times that tested me. There were changes in my life which I never thought would be so difficult, an unexpected event and the anniversary of my dear friend; Emma. The more I go through in life, the more I become tougher, I feel as though I can handle anything whatever life throws at me I will conquer. 

Time and patience will bring all the goodness to me, I'm hopeful for that. It's about reminding yourself that happiness is a mood, not a destination. What do I want from life? To be content and have inner peace. Forget materialism and all those things that money can buy. I am sure that there is one person out there who will complete my puzzle, its that missing piece that I know will come by in time. 

Life is what you make of it, I'm sure you've heard that saying before. But it's true really. That consolation that I dream of, will join up some day. But for now sabr and shukr for all that I have(arabic for patience and thankfulness).

Good friends

Good friends are those who make your troubles their troubles, so you don't have to go through them alone. I have a few of these. Thank you God for the friends I have in my life. Those who are near, those who are far. I really do appreciate those who are closest to me.

Journeys and experiences

Life has a funny way of taking people through journeys and different experiences. I truely believe that everyone's experiences are purposeful and they are mapped out in a way that brings good and makes people wiser after every situation. Whether it is something small or significant I believe that life teaches you many lessons and there is always more to learn. No one ends up with a plain sailing yacht, if life was like this I guess it would be boring. Allow the waves to rock you and be the sail that adjusts with the wind and takes you where you need to go. Allow your heart to do this. I feel free when I allow my heart to do what it wants. They say mind over matter. I simply say follow your heart.

Frustrating and saddening.

Just a bad dream

I can't sleep after waking up from a bad dream. Every had a dream where it feels so real as though it's actually happened to uou, but then you wake up and realise that it was just a dream. Life has many ways of challenging you and making your face many hurdles. Lately Iv been dreaming a lot, my mind is too active and I need to find ways to calm it. It can get tiring, the dreaming. Especially when they aren't so positive. You feel like it's just you, alone. Facing the world. I guess that constolation in the universe hasn't mapped itself out yet. I want that mark. Those faint tracing of those lines to guide me and make me feel strong.

Ready

I always imagined that there would be a time in my life where everything would line up and the universe would reveal its plan to me. What was once confusing and overwhelming, would reassemble and form something so clear and so bright, there was no way I wouldn't know what to do.

Theres a certain order of beauty, the way things move, orbits and patterns which are predetermined forever.  2 hundred billion stars in our galaxy and the billions beyond, still hold their wonder for me. But my true course, the one I track, its set in motion and I'm ready, ready for whatever comes next.

No barriers

"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope." -Maya Angelou