new year

Having a family meal out tonight. then a quiet night in for the fireworks on tv. Looking forward to 2012 I hope its filled with lots of memories. Im feeling its going to be a bigger better year.

relieved

I feel sooooo relieved right now and sooo stress free. I feel like a great big weight has been lifted off my shoulders I just wanna bungee jump or something. Im so giddy and my heart keeps on laughing. I feel like a child that just got that toy that they have wanted for ages. Relief! The best present ever! Yes iv only just gone and finished one thing- it was bang on 11000 words and 86 pages- my dissertation :)

New years eve soon.

Some people swear there's no beauty left in the world, no magic,then how do you explain the entire world coming together on one night to celebrate the hope of a new year? And, indeed, New Year's Eve is all about hope—mostly of the relational kind. It is there to remind us before we go ahead and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And to stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. It’s OK to listen to your heart. I know it’s risky. But every now and then you have to take that leap. There are so many things you can’t control: earthquakes, war, famine. It’s important to remember the things we can control, things like love and forgiveness. … Love in every one of its forms. Loves gives us hope. Hope for the New Year.

time on this planet is way too limited

christmas day

consisted of lamb leg, endless disney animation films and playing with the kids. sounds good to me.

ticking

christmas eve

only means one thing Christmas socks.

light

yaaaay yaaay yaaay Im so happy I feel like I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I only have 1000 words left of my dissertation and redrafting to do then I am done! I cannot wait to take a break. I feel like Iv worked my self silly this semester. A few more days of working hard then I can relax. Just want the new year to be here already. I need a fresh start.

Trust

I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately. I know you probably think Im boring and philosophical but its in my nature. I cant help it. I feel like this year more than any year has been a learning experience for me. Iv learnt to not let people into my life so easily. The problem with me is I give myself too easily, its because I wanna believe people are good. I wanna believe the best in them and believe that they mean whats best in the relationship. But its time to grow up and realise that sometimes it just doesnt go that way and people dont always think through their actions. Its time to put my guard up and be careful who I share my life with. And this is it. My new years resolution. Learn from experiences, move on and be careful who I trust.

the best way is to just build a bridge and get over it

Target

Dissertation complete by Friday. End of.

let it go

Letting go is one of those things that one needs to learn to do. It can often be difficult if something or someone means a lot to you. The heaviness on the heart is not healthy.

 

manchester markets

Just a couple of pictures from the christmas markets in manchester today. Had a lovely day with my friends wondering the markets and eating yum food!

my handmade christmas presents

battle

met the monkeys!

Met my cheeky little monkeys today and they are just theeee most adorable edible little pumpkins I have ever seen! I have 40 children to oversee and 18 cannot speak english very well and 5 are on special needs statements. So it seems I have my work cut out! But I am looking forward to rising to the challenge and hope to shine. Cannot wait to read them the runaway chappatti!

wise words

Your never going to know the outcome of things that happen in life. This is one of those situations that you put yourself through, because its worth it. For the lesson it may give or the actual outcome of it.

off to school

So its off to school tomorrow I go to meet my little monkeys! I am so excited to teach the tiny little inquisitive minds. I have two visit days so hopefully I can start to get to know all their names and interests. Its exciting that this is it. My last and final teaching practice before I am fully qualified- and I aim to make it the best yet. I dont want to be any ordinary teacher I want to be an outstanding teacher that all children look up to and I hope this is what I achieve. I better start rambling on and get an early night seen as I have to wake up early at 6.30 tomorow. But just thought Id make note of this exciting time for me :D

just keep swimming

A night in with beyonce..love this lady..she empowers us women! Just sat watching her live concert. A friday night pick me up!

if I were a boy

To the left to the left....

Who run the world? Girls!!!

what goes around comes back around

Words

I hate love, its a painful torture. Beautiful or not, it hurts. Day after day sticking by someone who only cares when they want too. Feeling so low because its the little things hurt you so much. The little things that you don't expect can hurt you more than you think. How do you know when someone truly loves you? Truth is, you don't. You have to hope that they feel the same, because you can never truly know how someone is feeling. Never wear your heart on your sleeve it only ends up hurting you more. No more. My problem is I want to believe the best in everyone, all those around me. When you love someone you want to believe their good, that their a good person and they can do no wrong. But sometimes you have to learn that life doesn't pan out that way and not everyone truly means well and is honest. Sometimes its just words. Words that mean something to you, but when they leave you realise they were only words.

Im good at most except the last part.

festive

busy week so far..I mean are we really on Thursday tomorrow? Its such a concern of mine how fast time goes..there really not enough hours in a day. Today I spent my final day at school tieing up some loose ends for my research and the other half of the day making my Christmas pressies. I got these beautiful beads from my trip to Qatar in summer and still haven't done anything with them. So I promised myself that I shall make my friends some lovely bracelets. I started on them tonight and if I must say so myself I think they look beaut. Except there's one thing now..I want to wear them and keep them! Why does that always happen? I always either make my friends something or buy them something that I would want to keep. I suppose that is when you really know its a nice present. I will put some pictures up when they are all done and the vintage christmas cards of course. So tomorrow Im at uni in the morning for a shoddy two hours then Its my friends birthday so were going out for a meal in the evening. So will probably spend the day lounging around somewhere cosy- think I may take a trip to Starbucks and treat myself to a hazelnut hot chocolate its a dreaaaam! Oh and Im handing in my poster- finally its out of my life and my living room! So yes Im beginning to feel the festive spirit even though I dont really celebrate christmas I just love the lights and the atmosphere. Which can only mean one thing..New Year! Not decided what Im doing with my new years eve..because I am working new years day..lucky me. Will have to make up for it a week late I think and a trip to manchester to hit the sales will certainly be due with my bestest. Take a look at these pics of we heart it that get me in the mood for festivities...oh and Iv also decided I want an eid tree when I get my own place one day. Adds to the excitement of the occasion I think.

Wouldn't mind being in london around christmas time- my brothers so lucky he gets to go!

Marry the night

Treating myself to a snuggy duvet morning today after all the hard work I put in on the weekend. Listening to this new band called Lawson. Im addicted to their acoustic cover of Lady Gaga 'Marry the Night'. Here it is.

sense of achievement!

Aiiiii I have finally finished the god damn poster! Im so glad its out of my life. Now I can focus on more important things like finishing this dissertation and getting to know my little monkeys who I will be teaching from January onwards. Was just thinking of all the arty things I will have to think about- i.e. chinese new year, valentines day, mothers day and easter..so there will be lots of lovely activities to plan for. I cant wait for 2011 a new year and a fresh start I feel as though things are really starting to look up. I know your thinking everyone says that and its just a date. but no- really I just cant wait to do what I love doing best- teaching the little ones. I feel as if all the frustration I'm feeling right now is being energetically driven out of me and focused into my hopeful career. All I need to do is start working out a little and starting my body combat again to get in shape but all I wanna do right now is hibernate and eat nice food. Im just a curvy girl that needs deliciousness in her life. So yes thats it my life as it stands. Tomorrow I have a careers fair which should be interesting as I have loads of questions ready- Im one of those annoying people that has to ask lots of questions and the answers they give are never enough. Now you cant knock me for enthusiasm! So hopefully Il find more light tomorrow as in where else I can think of applying for jobs. Exciting exciting exciting..I cant think of any other words its late!

Cosy

All warm and cosy and snuggled up in bed in my tartan jim jams..got work very soon. Really cannot be bothered today working by that windy till. Oh well...think of the money. I have a family dinner tonight at my aunties then Il come home and finish this damn poster- its been going on for too long now. I will finish it even if I have to stay up all night. Yes so thats what my day will consist of really.. nothing exciting just the sunday usual.

Me time

Phew! What a week..I havent stopped! So I decided to take some ME time today and just sit relax watch crappy TV and do nothing. Maybe Il blog a little and scroll through endless pages on we heart it. Oh and not to mention the Krispy Kreme I have to indulge in tonight!

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